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Thursday, August 25th, 2005
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6:32 pm
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things have been sweet latly
good hangouts
sams b-day super super fun..me not sick
everyone else sick. haha
other then that i've been hanging out wiht a boy from work alot
fun stuff!!! very fun actauly hehehe w.e im a girl and i no u all are to
well except for the boys but w.e
scared for school
kinda wish it was this summer forever!
josh lives here now, bit werid at times, a lot at others
what can u do...this firday sweet hang out with cam (boy from wrok)
very very excited! cute boy! hehe
ne ways thats all i have for now
being board and home for family night cuz
2morrow my rents and sis leave for a week
thank GOD!
all for now
xox
stephh
current mood:  i like being happy!
current music: fall out boy
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| Friday, August 12th, 2005
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2:18 pm
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admist all the crazy things that have been going on i have not really had a chance to think about ne thing. camping fun, did sometings i shouldn't of!!! need to talk about it but can't find the words. josh is movingg in soon. we cleaned out his room 2day crazy stuff. but i duno we really need to talk adn i just don't no where to begin!! god this is all so crazy and not me and i hate every thing about it!!!
but thats all for now
xox
steph
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| Friday, August 5th, 2005
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1:07 pm
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camping soon!! gonna be sweet wish everyone was goinggg
last few nights have been fun!
hangin out wiht sam adn her cousins and everyone hsa been good!
last night nicole and me just hanging out like it we used to was good
girl talked a lot..fun times!
working like mad, but the money is good
rise against :( i can't go
work likes to be retarted..errr but w.e i've only missed them
EVERY TIEM THEY COMEEEEE
i burnt my arm at work, and its really grose!
thats about it, nice scar on my arm
but w.e i tell ppl i got in a fight wiht a ninja
cuz apparently josh thinks that would be cooler!
speaking of josh..hmmm hes moving in!!!!
dunno about that one!
good? bad?? i guess we will soon find out
ohh gees theres gonna be a boy in my houseeeeee
all for now
xox
steph
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| Thursday, August 4th, 2005
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12:23 am - wanna see my hest chair?
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i hope this song starts a craze.
the kind of song that ignites the airwaves.
the kind of song that makes people glad
to be where they are,
with whoever they're there with.
this is war.
every line is about,
who i don't wanna write about anymore.
hope you come down with something
they can't diagnose, don't have the cure for.
holding on to your grudge.
oh its so hard to have someone to love.
and keeping quiet is hard.
cuz you cant keep a secret
if it never was a secret to start.
at least pretend you didn't wanna get caught..
we're concentrating on falling apart.
we were contenders, we're throwing the fight
but i just wanna believe, i just wanna believe,
i just wanna believe, in us.
fav song ever!!!!! thats all for now, off to beddy
xox
steph
current mood:  wish i was somewhere else
current music: okay i believe you, but my tommy gun don't - brand new
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| Monday, August 1st, 2005
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3:14 pm
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don't even no what to write
like a boy, he might like me back
we flirt alot which is fun
could be more but it might be werid
friends are good, hung out a lot!
went to downtown last night for teen night
hahahahhahaha
it was funny and lame and sweet at the same time
wish nicole was there
had a graduation bbq!
good times...<3 my family to death
hung out for a little bit with the boy from work
got in trouble for being out wiht him instead of with the fam
oops
got some $$$ but its gotta go in the bank :(
all for now wokring in a few, with the boy!! hehee
xox
steph
current mood: chipper
current music: thursday- wind-up
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| Thursday, July 28th, 2005
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10:40 pm
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so drinking equals not so good, sometimes i do things that are soo wrong when i drink and u no there wrong but u don't care at the time..had one of those nights, could have been wrose thats forsure. its happened b4 same thing different ppl, this time its way better cuz i can just laugh it off, last time it hurt!
gees i think this just proves that ne thing can happen and if ur friends it doesn't matter and u can move on wihtout the drama...which is good cuz drama is baddd.
other than that my body hates me for putting booze in it and trying to kill me from the inside out..ohh man i feel sick
ne ways i need sleep!!!
all for now
xox
steph
current mood:  sick
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| Wednesday, July 27th, 2005
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2:26 pm - yawwwn
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super tired and i dunno y? sleepy sleepy
sweet night the last few days...sweet storms..love em
i dujnno working like crazy this week...6 out of 7 days..well
one day was a staff meeting..but still i was there...my crush was not:(
he prob got his ass fired for not shoeing up cuz our kitchen manager is crazy
so that pretty much sucks. boys from work..weirdness don't like them, but like
flirting...not good! but man there way younger like 2 years...so i dunno WERID !
have to work in a few hours...wednesdays are the worst
karins 2nite? i dunno drinking i dunno? not in the mood
not really in the mood for nething...everything just feels so i dunno
repetative....hmmm what to do...go to bed i think...ok takin a nap
xox
steph
current mood:  tired
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| Friday, July 22nd, 2005
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1:14 am - dave=best gettaway driver in the world!
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ok so last night were all hanging out, its time to drive may and adam and karin home, i go for the ride, daves driving sams car, and adam decides to throw some peanuts at a car...well he hits then the car turns around and starts chasing us, like he has his brights on and right on our ass, and pulled beside us and told yelled for us to pull over, and then treid to cut us off when we turned, and it was insane...and dave only has his g1 and was just getting some practise driving. so of course were not telling our parents that part about us throwing the peanuts, or about dave driving, or about there being 6 ppl in a 5 person car, but we told tehm incase this guy got our licence plate, but he would be stupid to call the police cuz theres no way to prve we threw ne thing cuz its raining, and he chased us like a moron...soo ne ways that was our super sweet night, and dave was late getting home cuz of it and now hes grounded cuz his mom thinks he was lieing! all in all the ngith was CRAZY, but i did get a sweet pair of sunglasses and i got a shirt, so it was ok! but thats all for now, waiting for nicole to get home so i can tell her the story...hope she calls..if ur reading this call the cell or 0990..jsut found out happy news from dan...ohhlala...ne ways everyone seems to be happy which is good!!! happy ppl=happy friends=happy summer...ne ways im off to bed, nighty night
love always
steph
xox
current mood: car chases make u crazy
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| Wednesday, July 20th, 2005
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10:02 pm - not the ace of spades...its never is with david blane!
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ok so last night may have been the sweetest night..and styed up till 8am...it was super sweet, did things we always say were gonna do adn never do! we went to texas road, which was scary but only cuz we made it that way and we drove away from dave when he was peeing which was quite funny! then we went downtown and on top of a parking garage and yelled at ppl...well mostly dave but we spit alot. then on to teh beach and hung out adn ran in our underwear..yeah cuz were cool! then we hung out at jackson park and it is super pretty and i liked it alot and sung and played on equiptment....STILL NOT SLEEPING! and then i dunno drove around but being wiht everyone was deff fun and jsut pointless fun is amazing and i loved it to the max!!! and i love my friends to the extrem and wish we could stay like this forever just doing pointless dumb but amazing things! however everyone is gonna move on and i wanna cry thinking about it, cuz when u have nights like last night u just want everything to never ever ever change!!!! and the night b4 lst was also sweet, adn nicole and joshua hung out at my house till 2 and nicole was doing magic tricks all night cuz she is OBSESSED with david blane and i dunno we've been having some sweet nights and i love summer and i love my friends and i dunno im just gidddy about the fun we've all been having adn not just the last 2 or 3 days, vacation was sweet and camping at daves and hmmm i dunno shits gonna suck come september thats forsure!!! fuck growing up...who wants to go hunt down peter pan and stay kids forever??!!?! but ne ways thats enough of me going on about stuff!!! nighty night!!!
love to the max
steph
xox
current mood:  i should be tired but im not!
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| Monday, July 18th, 2005
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12:56 am
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ok so sometimes things should be easy and there hard, but i should be able to move on adn get over shit, but i cant..i never could its almost like its a phobia? i duno fuckin thigns, when u no someone is completly wrong for you y do u go on liking them, not just me everyone! u only get hurt, things get screwed up but for some reason we sit and hope only to be hurt even more the second time, no idea why shit happens this way, but i no i wish it didn't and i wish i never feel the things i always enevitably feel and i will eventually only get hurt!
errrrrrrrrrrg
on a good note had a sweet day with dave and sam went down town, not to rush, but we were sweeter ne ways, good night, good friends!!!
summers been good fun to the extreme, a few nights a go had the sweetest hang out yet, the most random group of ppl ever! but it was fun gonna miss the bis teena when she moves!! sweet gal! sweet night and it better not be the last for a while!
all for 2nite, back to playing dr. phil for dave!!
lots of luv
steph
xox
current mood:  let the confussion set in!
current music: nobody puts baby in the corner-fallout boy
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| Tuesday, July 12th, 2005
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12:15 am - woo long time!
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so its only been like forever since i've posted on here! seems like logner when i got bakc and read my old posts, i was a dork! it was all about the boys then..hahah not much has changed...minus the boys, but it doesn't matter things always end the same so nothing new there, but i am done highschool whihc is so god damn scary, im in college which means adult which i doubt in teh least im ready for but look out cuz theres no way of stopping it!!!
work = fine (cute boys!!!)
boys = could be better..moving on!!
friends = awsome, deff some new ones but the old ones count the most
life = fun adn scary and exciting all at the same time
family = good most of the time, gone on vacation without me...excitlent!
went on vacation wiht nicole sam may and josh to my cottage..sweetest week ever!!! highlight, driving home nicole mooned a car with 2 cute boys in it!!!! best times!! last night at daves..also good times...all in all with some minor drama at teh begining it seems to be a good summer so far!!!!
im gonna keep posting i just got lazy adn tehn forgot i even had a live journal!!! lol
thats all for tonight
byeee
steph
xox
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| Thursday, March 3rd, 2005
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8:35 pm - quizzes are sooo much fun
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LJ Friends Meme by ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) coolerq• You must tell 13 people about this game.
• josh is the one that you love.
• adam is one you like but can't work out.
• You care most about nicole.
• sam is the one who knows you very well.
• may is your lucky star.
• swing life away is the song that matches with josh.
• wonderwall is the song for adam.
• will she be loved is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.
• and float on is the song telling you how you feel about life
Take this quiz
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| Sunday, February 27th, 2005
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6:39 pm
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another day, another shity day! things suck, i haven't done my english h.w in like forever so its a good thing im failing life, for some reason some reason i just wish school was over, maybe its cuz i have a co=op so its like im working and i just want to be graduating adn going to college and get away for the shit hole that is called highschool! i dunno i guyess things could be worse but i just don't feel into it ne more! but was i ever INTO SCHOOL...doubtful....weekend wasn't so great friday was fun me adam karin and sam watched saw which was really good and i liked alot and scared me to death, but then i went home early cuz i felt sick, i woke up didn't really do ne thing till i had to work at 2 then got off at 10 went to sams for a few hours came home slept got up went to work at 8.30 got home at 5 and now im posting in here at 6.45 in my pj's sooooooo its been sweet, i booked off marhc break from work to so thats sweet i told them i was going skiing soooo ohh well i really didn't wanna work! and i got off a weekend in april wear my rents are going away and im gonna lie and tell them that i have to work teh saterday thats y i can't go adn tehn have a sweet weekend with my friends! so yeah things are ok just kinda going by in a blur and i really don't feel much of ne thing most of the time, like things are going on but it doesn't really matter and highschool is such a fuckign waste of time compared to ne thign were all going to eb doing ne a few more years so i dunno shit sukcs!!! sorry but the downer of a post!
xox
steph
current mood:  blank
current music: nothing!
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| Tuesday, February 22nd, 2005
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6:17 pm
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can't believe how long its been since i posted on here!!!! i've been wokring at tims and things are actalluy ok...i like teh people i work with so that makes it better...especially a cute boy named mike..hehehehe way cute! other than that things are fine...not the way i wanted them to be but still there fine. boys suck minus mike who i don't even no or talk to minus work but w/e were gonna do it...jsut jokeing of course...well thats all this is a shitty post adn ium sorry in kinda of mood right now and im not sure y...but w.e i'll remeber to post more!! byeee
xox steph
current mood: cranky
current music: the used
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| Saturday, February 5th, 2005
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5:26 pm
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gees i keep forgeting to post in here....so today was my first day at tim hortens...i sat for 8 hours on a stool next to the frezzer door watching the worst movies in teh world on a computer screen...god it sucked more then ne thing! tonight i am doing nothing by choice...watching gilmore girls one tree hill and sleeping cuz i get to go to work again 2morrow!! SCORE ne ways other than that things are good and fine in my world sooo i guess thats all nothing new in my life means boring posts...sorry!!!!
xox
steph
current mood:  work will do that to ya
current music: will she be loved-maroon 5
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| Tuesday, February 1st, 2005
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9:05 am
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ok soo its been forever since i updated...why i dunno but it has been a long time!!! things have been good, me and teh rents not fighting as much, me and teh firends are good, things have just been better latly, exams went ok, adn are OVER next semester should be sweet, i dunno things now are just teh way i want them minus one small thing thats not really small at all. BUT we can't have everythign right adn if we did, im sure we wouldn't know we had everything and could just think of some obscure thing what we never had. well that would be selfish adn stupid! im glad i don't have everything cuz then if your lucky and u get that one thing. the one thing u want the most out of every other thing u want it makes it more special. it almost makes it like a gift, a gift that just comes not on ur birthday or christmas or valintines day, just a gift that makes u feel more special then u ever have befor.adn god do i want that gift, and sometimes i feel like that gift is gonna come, and i get my hopes up only to see that the gift would rather be on someone elses front porch waiting to be opened, which makes u feel stupid and hmmmmm maybe the gift isn't that important right, you can live wiht out the gift..and still be happy..yes...that is true, but things would be x100000 sweeter if the gift was waitign for me!!!! its way to early to be making sence sooooorrry for the rambling!!!!! thats all i got gonna go get dreesed josh is comming over to make up some resumes....and now more then ever i want the gift!!!!
xox
steph
current mood:  want ppl over to hang out with
current music: rise against- paper wings..hahah dan got your CD still
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| Saturday, January 22nd, 2005
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2:47 pm - soooo much SNOW
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there is soooooo much snow outside it jsut looks so pretty adn so untouched cuz everyone doesn't wanna go out, almost like its better to look at then to drive therw. it sparkles and i just want to go out adn lay down in it and jstu lay there and be cold
last night was really really fun...and cold, but fun. nicole me josh sam may and dan went to the beach...yuppp the beach in the winter and it was fun and we played in teh snow and on the ice and were gonna haev sparklers to but we couldn't light a match long enough to get a sparkler lit soooo we didn't but it was still fun and then we went back to joshes. we sat around adn josh and dan played the guitar and sang and then we watched perter pan till josh made us shut it off cuz it was a movie for 4 year olds aperintly..lol...then nicoel may and dan left adn me sam and josh just slept/lay in bed talking for a few hours till we had to be home so it was a fun night.
sometimes i feel like things are repeating tehmselves
adn not in a good way
like things happen for a reason
but i can't see the reason
confused adn restless adn hopefull
that maybe things will be better...be more
unsure of how things will turn out
and i might never stop being that way
current mood:  love the snow makes everythign
current music: radio-rancid
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| Sunday, January 16th, 2005
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4:12 pm - almost done my grounding!!!
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ok so to day is the LAST DAY OF BEING GROUNDED!!!!!! thank god, who i don't normally being to believe in BUT when my grounding is over adn after all teh crap i pulled while being grounded it almost reafirs my faith in something that does NOT want me home for another 2 weeks...had a good weekend...well actaully i lied i had a horrible weekend MINUS friday night when i had a reallg good tiem wiht josh, sam and may...really did nothing played some pool, watched WAY TO MUCH PORN because i got a new big tv adn we wanted to see if porn was cool on a big screen..yupp teh 4 of us are werid werid children...missed nicole who was gettign some nooky from the boy toy so i suppose it was for a good cause...happy 2 month by the way, and if u read this have fun at the show...ne ways then saterday i fought with my dad and stayed in my room for the whole day adn night minus when i ate but other than that the whole time i was in the room reading...bad news what a bad saterday night...good news i read all of bridget jones diary in one day...im sick! i haev a problem....ne ways sunday went for my interview at times which went good, which is good i suppose, then i went to teena's and picked up the virgin suicides so i could show part of it in my family studys presentation, haven't watched it yet cuz this movie puts my in a funk and im in a ok mood so the funk will have to wait, then went to sams who did my hair nice so the it will be crimpy for my grad pic which i think will go good but im sure i just ginxed and will wake up with a zit 2morrow...lol..omg im such a dork for having that thought! NE WAYS that is alllll for now next time i post i will be a free woman!!! i have a feeling tomorrow im going to break into the horrible song born free....but born free is the only line i know..if u no the rest let me know...ok all for now byeee and i hope everyone had a good weekend!
current mood:  giggly
current music: 89x radio
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| Tuesday, January 11th, 2005
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6:50 pm - SNOW DAYYYYYYYY
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wow 3 snow days in 2 weeks..maybe more to come...keep your fingers crossed...i really needed this day off cuz my world issues isu is due tomorrow and ofcourse i had not started yet, but its done now and i'm in a good mood becuase its done!! i hate that i procrastinate so much, but i do it everytime, but its done, don't think its very good but at least its done!!! i got the worst phone call in the world 2day, tim hortens called to set up an interview dun dun dunnnnnnnnnnn!!!! if only someelse offeres me a job befor sunday at 11.30 (that being when i have my interview) god..well at least its money cuz i sure do need it...got my cell phone bill 2day, turns out when i called sam on my break for 15 min EVERYDAY i worked it wasn't after hours so i have over 100 hours over and own my rents 40bucks...then my mom said she wuold hide it from my dad cuz he would get mad, but then she left the envoice out but hid the actaull bill so he found it...ohh well he wasn't that mad!
hope everyone had a good snow day
see you all 2morrow unless its snows some more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
love you all
xox
steph
current mood: cheerful
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| Monday, January 10th, 2005
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9:09 pm
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ok the count down has begun im ungrounded in 7 days from right now!! woooo and as much as its sucked time has gone by pretty fast...but looking back i guess this whole school year so far has gone by fast, i remeber the summer like it was last weekend, our camp outs, trips to the beach, staying out at teh park unitll 5 in teh morning and then going right to tim hortens...they were good times, and don't seem that long ago at all...now theres a foot of snow its freezing rain and if one more person says "exam" im gonna start to cry cuz im not ready!!! and after exams cuz something scary...college/university...and the question i ask my self everytime someone asks so what are u doing next year is, am what im doing right, maybe ive only wanted to be a chef cuz i needed to pick something and this was just what i felt at teh time, but what if im not good or just dont fit in under teh pressures...what if im not ready to graduate, i mean i remeber semi formals thinking omg soon this will be prom adn now only months away is that very even that i looked forward to everytime i ever passed a dress store. and graduation, moving on...2nite i talked on the phone to josh for a whiel and it MAY have been one of the most depressing conversations i have had in a long time wiht ne one, but its true i dunno im not ready to move on, and me and my mom talked about and she gave me the whole ohhh you will mature over this year and be alset come college...what if im not, what if i don't get in, what if what if what if, and me and josh just talked about all the what ifs but never came up with a solution to any of them, he said he would join teh army but common can u see me in the army? doubt it...and god its scary but im turning 18, 18 i remeber thinking that grade 11 would be a great year when i was younger i just wanted to be in grade 11 cuz theres not as much worries as tehre are in grade 12 but still the adultness of it...well grade 11 came and left and were almost half way done grade 12, and i dunno maybe i am just imature adn scared but scared is a word that comes in and out of my mind CONSTANTLY....wow im almost an adult and im not ready, i still watch boy meets world reruns and cry when im sad and stay up all night when there are thunderstroms cuz i can;t sleep and just lay there adn listen to the rain...those aren't things adults do...is it..i don't no, cuz im not an adult and i don't wanna be!!! im like a walking talking breathing verson of the toys r' us commercial i don't wanna grow up!! and somehow typing all of this on here makes me feel SO much better and i no who ever reads this u think that im crazy for writing this, or maybe u agree with me but at this point i don't care i need to say what i say for a reason! and i thought tlaking to josh about this would somehow i dunno make it seem easyer but it only just insured in me that yup im still scared but so is he, and i thought maybe even knowing someone else is jsut as scared as me that i would feel better, but somehow it didn't! hes depressed and so am i and we would have kept talking and not ended on such a sad note but my mom came home adn i had to get off the phone, i just hate that we talked about school future and we were jsut starting to talk about things that matttered and i had to go, now im left still thinknign about everything we talked about friends, future, EVERYTHING, hmmm and now at 9.30 im going to go read..how very adult of me if i do say so myself!!
nite
xox
steph
current mood: worried
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